Day 7. What have i done

Today marks the 7th day of my 60 day challenge. 1 week down. 7 more to do.

This weekend, however, will probably be the hardest. I have already stumbled once. not going to lie, I’m a little ashamed.

Last night my bf decided that he wanted to go to a local seafood buffet.Sure why not?  I have been so good and so strong since day 1 that I’m sure I can find something paleo to eat there. I mean … its a SEAFOOD buffet. I can eat seafood~! We walk into the restaurant and get seated.Got our drink orders taken. We look at each other… and up we go. As any experienced buffet eaters (if you did not know, I am a pro buffet eater) I first walk all of the stations scoping out what is available. In my head i’m doing checks. Not paleo. Not paleo, paleo. Not paleo. Not paleo. Not paleo. ehhhhh… kinda paleo. Not paleo. Not paleo…. OH SHIT. . this may be harder than you thought. Quickly! Get a plate and load it up with salad! I grab a plate. Salad. paleo. Hard boiled egg from salad bar. Paleo. cocktail shrimp. Paleo. Sashimi! Definitely paleo.  I grab half a plate full of sashimi and head back to my table. Of course my bf gets back right about the same time. And oh man does he have some yummy food on his plate. I polish off my plate of food and of course  go back for seconds.

This is where the epic internal battle begins. You have been so good. Don’t fail. But…. I have been so good…I should be able to have a little. NO! DO NOT GIVE IN. But I can’t have any of the good stuff here… YOU DONT NEED IT. But I kinda want it… plus its my Birthday weekend! Yes ladies and gentlemen, it is my birthday weekend. FINE we compromise. You can’t get anything with cheese or something that is all grain. DONE. And that’s where I slipped. Although I did not eat any of the rice, noodles, pastas, or anything else with cheese.. I still failed.

The worst part? The food wasn’t even that good. I succumbed into temptation for shitty food. God do I feel stupid. PLUS i’m sure the quality of the food was terrible. I mean I had a headache, my stomach was upset, and I was emotionally traumatized.  urg. so disgusted with my self. GOD I hope I get food poisoning or diarrhea. I mean who does that… who wants food poisoning or diarrhea. I do. I want that crap out! I’m having a juice for breakfast. And that is what I did. I made myself a huge glass of juice this morning.  The good food and the bad food are waging a war in my stomach right now.

time to get dressed for crossfit.

Day 1. Are we there yet?

its 8pm and i have been eating paleo all day and i feel like….shit. So i figure i would write a little to take my mind of it.

To kick off the Paleo challenge, my Crossfit gym arranged for a hydrostatic body composition analysis.. .also known as a dunk. The dunk apparently is the most accurate way to measure your lean body mass, fat body mass. and after 60 days of paleo… we dunk again to see the results.

i will also admit that i took a “before photo” of myself.. and hopefully after 60 days…  i will be one of those amazing “before and after photo” people. oh how i desperately want to be a Before and After photo person. and i will tell you this.. HOLY SHIT.. i do not look okay. i think my mind as adjusted to trick me into thinking that i am not as fat i really am in order to prevent itself from going into a downward spiral of depression and self loathing.

and no…. i will not share my “Before Photo”… well not yet at least. not until i see some results. But here is a photo of my first paleo meal!  YUM

actually i ate the same thing all day. i grilled a ton of chicken last night. best idea. takes all the thinking out of it. although the chicken is not organic, ive been told that eating true paleo is pretty much impossible unless you own your own farm. curious about what palo is? check out Robb Wolf’s website or check out this blog that i found.. Nerd Fitness does a great job of giving you the general idea.

i was so motivated today.. i even juiced!

Veggies on death row. It’s juicing time.

one of my trainers told me today that i was going to feel terrible for the first few days. my body is technically detoxing. could take up to a month.. depending on how bad my diet was before. WELLLLLL shit.. i wish i knew that before i started. although it is hot right now in sunny California, i am definitely sweating more than normal, i have a numb and throbbing head ache, and my body is feeling sore. for no good reason. detox? perhaps. definitely possible. either way, i am definitely jonesing for a double double from in n Out with their perfect fries and a cooling…. refreshing… dr. pepper. just say no. just say no. just say no. 

i should go eat more chicken before i break down

last thing. my results

height: 68 inches
weight: 177
fat body mass: 47.5 pounds
lean body mass: 129.5 pounds
body fat percentage: 26.8
lean body mass percentage: 73.2

goal weight: 155
goal body fat percentage: 16.8 (according to my little print out, ideal for women is 22. eh. why not shoot for the stars)